It seems to me, not that any of you know me and afterall this is free advice, that Steve is on the verge of transcending the consciousness that our personality gives us, but hasn't quite gone that far. If all is consciousness, then why play around with mere changes in the physical world? Why not make changes in consciousness that brings us closer to the great Consciousness of our Being?
As an exercise in humbleness, I suggest something that I went through a couple of years ago. As a result of a nerve injury to my peroneal nerve in my leg which caused so much pain I was unable to walk or get out of bed anymore, I was bedridden for 4 months. I only managed to get up with the help of crutches to go to the bathroom. I had to do everything on one foot including getting in and out of the bathtub, and the injured leg even reacted to jarring of any kind, so I could not remain on crutches very long before I retreated back to bed. I ate meals in bed, did my makeup (when we had to go to appointments) in bed. My husband kindly bought me a laptop so that I could at least research the physical issue and look for doctors who dealt with chronic painful nerve inflammation. Occasionally, I was able to sit in the living room in a reclining position on the couch, but not for long as that seemed to make the nerve throb after a while. I don't suggest injuring any nerves on purpose. That would give one the optimal experience, but would not be practical. Instead, I would simply suggest trying to be bedridden and disabled for a month. Now, I know this puts a burden on those around you, as it did in my case, but that is part of the lesson. If your wife and kids agree to go along, I can tell you it is a great lesson in humbleness, as well as empathy with those people who are less mobile than the rest of us.
Btw, I did finally overcome the entire thing with daily visualization, meditation and positive affirmations. I visualized being mobile again and resuming daily activities, which led me to a doctor who had specialties in nerve injuries, mobility therapy and psychotherapy so that he correctly diagnosed my problem and got me on a program to get me back on my feet and resume my normal life again. And I experienced a LOT of spiritual growth during this time.
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