I can relate to this. I too have always been excluded,although somehow i always managed to have a best friend at any given time in my life. But even then,whenever we were both around other people,i was excluded even by them,almost like they took the side of the group. This happened from grade school all the way to now and i'm 35. In grade school (jr. high mostly) i was ridiculed for not having the right clothes,and having acne. In high school i was ridiculed for being "ugly" (as some guys put it). And now when i try to break out of my shell and talk more,i get ridiculed for being different and wierd,even though that doesnt bother me because i dont care how different i am,i accept myself now. I even accept my looks for the most part,and i have had one boyfriend in my life which i guess is better than nothing,even though he was the kind of guy that nobody else liked and other girls wouldnt date him. So i feel your pain on this issue. In my case my exclusion stemmed from being picked on as a child and even when i rose above that,it turned into being excluded because i dont talk very easily and when i do i usually get ridiculed for what i say,so,i kinda give up LOL I guess i dont really have any advice,just wanted to let you know you're not alone.
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