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Originally Posted by helgi  The biggest issue I've had is with future-projection and planning, and then also a fear of rejection.
The issue with "future" is probably that it is one of the mainstays of ego motivated thinking, with it always looking for something in the future for its salvation etc., and so whatever ego there is left is likely to be activated when thinking about the future.
So, because the future is then nothing but an abstracted mental image made from bits and pieces of fear-contaminated concepts, thinking about the future becomes an exercise of the ego to project itself into this abstracted mental image. When this happens, not only is it attempting to cobble together a believable "reality" for itself, it's doing it with a few pieces of a puzzle that don't fit together, making up (inevitably fear-based) pieces in between to complete the puzzle.
I feel that when I'm contemplating something in the future, I'm running into the largest surviving parts of my ego. The subconscious fears are the remaining building-blocks of it, what it uses to maintain itself and survive; entities of concentrated context-dependent fear that you've accumulated over the years.
The ego is able to cultivate these fears while we're not conscious enough to notice, and so I think that the issue with subconscious fears is something that will not continue to be a problem having gone through with it once. It's almost like having gotten rid of a slob roommate, and then discovering beer bottles under the couch months later. He won't be back, and so once you throw out the stuff he left behind you've cleared the problem once and for all. |
To be perfectly honest with you I don't quite understand. I'm reading A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson at the moment so I will probably return to this thread after I have learned more.
I apologise to anyone concerned if I presented myself as an expert. I am dealing with my ego's need for recognition lol.
Thanks for the brain food Helgi et al.