[Gordon]

Greetings,

Thanks for the opportunity to post my thoughts here and get some feedback. I don’t know if anyone will have any answers or maybe it’s just something I have to go through.

Where to begin? I’ll begin with a little about me and then describe the situation I find myself in at the moment and work back from there.

I am 40 year old male who is self employed. I live with my partner and we have the most beautiful 2 year old boy in the world!!! (In my humble opinion.) I love my other half to bits and she is one of the kindest, supportive, selfless and sensitive people I have every met. We have been together now for 4 years.

My business is computer training, for which I have had for just over 4 years also. The problem with it, is that it is very seasonal and we are fast approaching Christmas and my order book this year has dried up faster than previous years. My problem is that I have now personally run out of money. No one does training over Christmas (or even summer for that reason).

I have been working with a chap to develop a longer term strategy to alleviate this problem and that is coming on just fine. Utlilising goal setting, vision boards, mind persuasion techniques, along with copywriting skills for our marketing. We are seeing some results and one of my goals to concentrate of several corporate clients to generate monthly income streams instead of peaks and troughs of revenues.

It has been a hard slog to even get to this point and to cut a long story short. I have now not been able to pay myself properly recently. As a consequence is for the first time ever we have not been able to pay our mortgage!! My other has quite understandably been upset and has blamed me for everything under the sun….and has only started talking to me again after two days….her family have always thought of me as trash at the best of times….(they think everyone is trash, by the way!!)

I have been trying to look for some temp work, just to ease the cash flow and relieve the financial pressure. On top of everyone hating me, chasing me for money, thinking me as trash, I also have to deal with the guilt and responsibility of it all. No luck on the temp front….nearly single again…and hate not being able to afford to take my son out.

This is a short version of what is going on….I know that in the long term we will be fine….but it’s not easy when your in the middle of it.

I don’t know how to sort our the short term….or do I try to keep focused on the longer term picture to resolves the issues?

Regards,