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Originally Posted by Zomer Briez  Yes, what I said was very arrogant sounding. My stating it though was not intented to flaunt itelligence or belittle other people.
(Though lately my "cool" roomate who constatley insults me and belittles me, has been informing me about how everyone at school calls me a loser/wierdo. So I have been in a real hate mood lately)
No, I don't think people are intimidated by me personally at all. Mostly people just think I'm a wierd loser (which I am).
Maybe I just came to that "intimidation" conclusion because I personally am intimidated by people smarter than I. But now that I think about it though, I'm intimidated by everyone. I feel like such a looser ass piece of **** all the time it makes me intimidated by and dislike everyone. I feel like everyone is always looking down on me too and that also makes me dislike them.
I still think thought that people of similar intelligence get along better than people who are not and I would be happier in life with an IQ of 100 (and perhaps not having clinical depression would help too).
... but still, I might just be weird and have no friends no matter what
and all this negative **** I always say, it must be emotionally draining and not fun to be around. And I'm always filled with this self pitty that must be annoying also.
Wow, this has made me realise how much I need to get back on anti-depressants, but... I'm afraid of them... |
I've been there buddy.
I know that feeling all too well. The worst part is how it's not just me that is miserable, but how I seem to make everyone around me miserable.
The bottom line is that despite the very real feeling that the entire world is just there to cause you misery... there ARE times when you feel joyous, when you laugh, when you even feel love. Think about those times for a second.
We tend to notice the bad stuff and focus on it. We tend to constantly criticize ourselves and then by extension we criticize everyone else. We may think it's actually helping ourselves or helping others. But, in truth, this criticism is pointless.
I bet there was a time in your life when you were happy for months on end without any depression in sight. What was different then?