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Originally Posted by JimOfferman  Be glad. There are too many people out there who are in a bad situation and just cannot muster the courage to change it, because they fear that their new situation might not be all good. For them, facing the fear is harder than enduring the suffering. |
Those are people who haven't suffered enough, in my opinion.
I know people like that--I keep falling in love with those men, sometimes I think they will be the death of me.
Yossarian--personally, I quite enjoy my solitude almost all of the time. If I have to go into a situation where I'm not alone, it doesn't bother me, in fact, the only suffering I get with my solitude is from being alone 24/7. Ideally I would like a certain type of man and love to be with me and then I wouldn't even have that lonely sadness. The lonely sadness from solitude is infinitely less painful than what I experience with the male members of my biological family. And thankfully I think God broke the mold in all places when he made my dad and brother, so I can't find another one like them anywhere I go (uh oh, except my brother's kids
). Most everyone else in the world seems relatively normal to me and such people are not so difficult to deal with psychologically or emotionally.
Otherwise, it's clear you are light years ahead of me in your development. My life is too chaotic to do anything at all regularly. I would have to have a homebase and I'm just not where I want to be geographically right now, nevermind in any other realm. Indecision is another huge challenge I have. I used to meditate (my dad made me) every day twice a day, since I was about 12 up until my life started falling apart after leaving my father and it didn't help me like it helps you. (That doesn't mean I won't start doing it again, just not regularly, and maybe I'll do it regularly the same time I get a life--cook, clean, knit, bake, kiss my husband when he comes in the door from work and raise little kids according to a schedule like a normal woman does.) Nowadays, if I meditate, I do it by listening to the Silva mind centering meditation recording.
Look at everything that Angela has missed
. She has a lot of catching up to do
.
P.S. What misery I
can't escape, which sounds like what you might be talking about, is actually the repercussions of my childhood and upbringing. That I can't escape and it follows me everywhere, worst of all to my relationships. I have been to therapists and all of that, but it never helped. I have been trying EFT in the last months and it seems to be working, but it feels like trying to melt an iceberg with a match. In the meantime, traumas keep building up. I wanted to take some time off from my traumas and hoped to come to my brother's to fix myself more diligently, but instead he doesn't want me staying here any longer and the very things I am doing EFT about are being reinforced and added to.