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Originally Posted by Angela  Bliss Sage, I am so sorry you're hurting, and I hope that you can get through to the other side of pain quickly, if that's what you want to do. |
I'll be better again once I'm out of my brother's house and my mere presence is not cause for his anger. I came close to leaving this wretched house to go out to the streets yesterday to spare them the agony of me any further. I hardly even say anything here, so I can't understand and I don't leave messes or ... I mean I'm here as inconspicuously as I can be without ceasing to exist and he still shouts at me and his wife tells me I'm "difficult to live with," my brother told me I'm the worst guest they've ever had. Don't speculate as to why, I don't care why, I only care about leaving asap. I hate being here and I will leave as soon as I get the visa I need to go where I'm going. I feel like I've regressed so much since I got here. I had forgotten how bad family is and how bad it is for me.
I find it not only easy, but natural to be vulnerable and sort of normal with strangers, because strangers are nice and sometimes even gentle with me, and most people are nice, but it is these people, my alleged family, I have to go into a shell to protect myself and hide until I'm gone from them or they're gone and it's safe to come out again.
For giving advice, to be honest, I am often a little surprised that most people are ready to give advice without knowing much information about the situation. I usually don't do that, but I ask the person needing advice many questions first and I listen to them and that way I get an understanding and feeling for what they want and what their situation is and also for the feelings of the other people involved, because that matters a lot too when you give advice. For example, if a fish takes the advice of a fox and comes out on land to live, it will die. Before giving advice, a person ought to feel where the person is living so they don't give damaging advice.
Anyway, that's that, and the first paragraph explains my response. I doubt I would have responded as I did under normal circumstances. Maybe would have paid more attention to the latter part of your post, but when you are under fire, you don't yet think about how you are going to heal your wounds.
I'm sure glad, though, that you didn't respond hostily to my message. Thanks.