Thanks for writing back I'd written back sooner but on the 4th I finally had a nervous breakdown. I meant I felt like I lost my soul and was trying to find it. I felt empty, dead inside. I blacked out to find myself in the hospital - or the hall with doors. Maybe I am crazy, I 'm still not sure what's happening. I found myself surrounded by people who reminded me of myself or sisters of mine, even a guy whose name matched that of my dead brother - talking about something i did with my son recently. I keep thinking i have split personalitys, maybe Im that delusional...I finally "got out" because i have a loving supportive huband. I found myself and he guided me to the light. Before I kept thinking I'm afriad to die, but I found him and was "released" I see him as my soul mate. I see clearly now like everythings in 3d, I hear people say things before they say it "in my mind"...its like I'm reawakened. I still don't know whats happening maybe I'm still crazy. If you have anymore input that'd be great. Maybe you can confrim I'm crazy to. Thanks again for your responds. Maybe by writing this it will help others know there not alone.
The 4th also happened to be my birthday.What happened was...
I had the 12 Symptons of Awakening Divinity, at least i think
I still am on number 6. I wake about every hour from 1am till about 4 or 5am I just feel as if I can't wait or can't sleep. I passed through 7 and 8, and 12 in the hospital. One morning I woke up and felt calm, wanting to leave - I couldn't wait to get out. I have a scar on my arm and it tingles when I read something, realize something - like little pin pricks type like here I am. But I feel as if I'm still journeying. I want to believe also. I had passed through 1,2,3,4,5,7,10 and 11 during my depression. Thank you so much. for your responses.