The things in life that give us the most joy, also have the potential to give us the most fear because we want them so much we greatly fear the loss. And that is unfortunate, because that is where things go awry. This world is composed of dualities, and you can think with the mindset in you that fears, or the mindset in you that loves. The stronger the love component, the more the fear component rises to tempt you into its thought system. It takes courage and practice to only choose thoughts of love and joy.
I sympathize with your difficulty in taking things easy in regards to that which is extremely important to you. But the problem is that force breeds resistance, and the more you try, the more you are pointed upstream, and the more you pointed upstream, the more resistance you will meet, and the more resistance you meet, the more you are just beating yourself against the rocks, and the more you beat yourself against the rocks, the more often you will fail...its a destructive cycle you see?
In the calculus of faith, believing you have already achieved what you desire is the same as being utterly content that you never will. Both renounce autonomy, or the ego in otherwords, which is the illusionary barrier between you and that which you desire. This is why detatchment is part of the process. Your mind is interfaced with all things in existence, and spiritually, and in regard to the Law of Attraction, the distance measured between you and the object of your desire, is not measured by any sort of physical marker, but by the vibrational difference between your consciousness and the consciousness of your desire. Everything in existence is a cosmic sea of frequency, and reality is a station you tuned into. I wish you best of luck tuning into another station.
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