Moonrambler, you raised a number of points.
1. To gain friendship, you give friendship. Similarly, it has often been suggested that to gain money, you have to give money (or other forms of value). It has also been suggested that it is best ot think of money as just energy, and to gain energy, you have to give energy.
2. Try The Power of Now. It is not what is fact, but what is your feelings about that fact. By all objective measures, your finances could be going all to hell, but it is still possible to feel good. Would you feel good if you went two weeks without eating? Victor Frankl might be interesting for you to look up.
3. I dunno how much reading you've done, but I suggest that you read at least a few of these books:
THe Law of Attraction by Michael Losier (very basic, b ut good overview, too)
The Law of Attraction by Abraham-Hicks, and other books by them
Seven Spirtiual Laws of Success by Deepak Chopra
Steve's posts on IM.
Inspired Money Maker - How To Make Money Doing What You Love, impaul's site is also good. Especially look up, "The mental virus that is keeping your broke" and "believing is seeing"
The little money bible by stuart wilde (and other stuff by him)
The Trick to money is having some by stuary wilde
4. The feeling like lying thing is interesting, dig into that a bit more.
5. Think about why attachment (ie feeling like you NEED it) is so important to you. Perhaps you have been taught that detachment is really not caring (it isn't, its just not being attached to the outcome), or you've been taught the only way you can know something is important is if you feel strong emotions regarding it.
Yar.