Thanks for the feedback. I had a rather bad day yesterday, feeling a little depressed and so on. But it’s a little bit better today so I wanted to thank you.
To show you that I really appreaciate your answer I will try to give you some feedback to.
to Fusebox:
Yes, I’m aware that negative thinking is an of my greater problems. I was always someone dwelling to much on problems or errors made in the past. One source for my depression yesterday was seeing an old yearbook from school (which I left without anything I could be proud of. And seeing all the opportunities I wasted in this time really made me sick. I was lazy and dishonest in school and a absolute loner. And these times still haunt me after nearly 15 years and get me down. It’s a deeply implanted feeling of failure. But again I dwell on it, so I rather stop here.
The real problem is, there is almost nothing I really could be proud off, so there’s no boosting myself up with looking back. I have a hard time finding things about me that I like...Ok, I’m a rather nice and friendly guy. But, of course, there is a problem with this.
First: I admit that I don’t really care about other people very often...I am a very self-centered person...on the other side, I’m totally addicted to get positive feedback from others. I want to be liked by anyone, seeking harmony and crazy for respect from others. So, is my nice behaviour just a tool to get my feedback from others? That would make it a tool for my self-centered desires, and therefore not something to feel good about.
Second: Even if the term “nice guys finish last” is overhyped for sure, there’s some truth in it for sure. And as my life is very empty of passion along with being a nice “no-conflict” guy, I see myself as extremly boring.
So I have a real problem getting a good start in positive thinking....Just writing this post is perhaps a bad idea, cause it gets me to think about what I don’t like about me instead about what I like...But I’m running in circles I guess, so I better go on...
To carl:
Thanks for your advice. I know, motivation follows action...I know it on an intellectual level, but I’m having a hard time getting into the action. I guess I should just get a grip and get started. But that ain’t easy, because I’m a huge procrastinator. I have read nearly all of Steve articles, but don’t ask me about the actions I have taken on them. And as Steve says: “to know and not to act on it is not to know”...
To Love & ZenDude:
Again thanks to you...I know the ways and the usual questions as mentioned by ZenDude...The problem with question no. 1 is: I just don’t know what I would do...except from securing world peace of course...
Same for no. 2....I guess I’m a bit of a slacker...I guess if I had the money I would just go on wasting my life...And of course that wouldn’t make me happy in the end. But I just can’t get a grip on what I really want. I read some books, trying to find my “personal genius”...but all the stories about persons finding their unique genius just depressed me, because I couldn’t think of anything.
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