[jawillie]

I know read somewhere (probably one of Steve's blogs) that feeling bad is not necessarily a bad thing. If you take that feeling and get to the root cause of it you can then get clues on how to help make yourself feel better.

Now, when it comes to death? Oh boy. I am not good at that one. Or, at least, I wasn't when my Dad died September 2006. But when he died I had no clue what I believed about life/death, etc. So, to me, he was just GONE. And, even now... Yeah, I do believe one "never dies" but I know this.. Dad doesn't call me up at 6 pm every night and it SUCKS. Plain and simple!

So I guess I can't understand how one could never feel sad when a close loved one dies. Maybe I am better prepared for the next one, but I doubt it.

But, on a day-to-day living thing? I am learning not to let my feelings control my life. I have been practicing "feeling good" and what I have noticed is that I spent most of my adult life quite CRABBY!! Now, it feels really good to let that crabby person go and embrace a new way to be.

I am not "perfect" at it, but I am a happier person today than I was yesterday!

I am also learning when I feel "miserable" to ask myself WHY? And then... "what are you going to do about it?"

Then I get my pad of paper out, make a list and get to work. : ) Of course, this is after a bit of "sulking" that I actually have to DO something!!! lol