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jawillie · 01-11-2008, 06:34 PM

Thanks for posting this. I have been finding articles much like this everywhere I look these days.

Last week I as so mad.

I am not happy with my job/career path. I have been trying to manifest something else, or even just an ANSWER to what to do next and I get nothing but frustration.

Then I just got downright mad because I am SO miserable in my job, it is all I will ever get....

Does that make sense?

I don't know how to fix it, so it's all I will get.

I can't lie to myself that I love it. I have tried that and I ended up laughing hysterically.

So when it comes to manifesting, I have been toying with this for a bit, but I am going for the "gusto" because frankly I want financial freedom. Yes, I want to be a service to others... I try to be a service to others all the time, but I do not want to work 60 hours a week.

One day I did feel I "knew" I was financial free. I toyed with how that would feel. At the grocery store I had no worries about counting how much anything was... I bought what I wanted based on desire, not affordability. Turns out, when I can have anything I want, I really don't WANT everything... so I really didn't go overboard in our budget at all. But I honestly FELT "free"...... It's hard to explain. I KNEW I Was financially free.

I went to Home Depot to use a $25.00 gift card I had received for CHristmas. Again.... I KNEW I was "financially free." I looked at kitchen cabinets and imagined what it would be to buy the ones I wanted just because I wanted them, not because they were all I could afford. I was SO LIGHTHEARTED. I had a smile on my face, people were saying hello to me, I was saying Hello back.... it was just awesome! So, I bought some supplies that came to $48, so I knew I would have to use my own money along with the card. I hand the cashier my check card and she looks at me surprised. She said, "You have enough on your Gift Card, infact, you have a credit of $6.21." So... the gift card was for $55.00!!!! I call my Mom and she said, no... they definitely only paid $25.00.

WOW... did that ever add to my ability to feel financial free!! I KNEW money came to me easily. And it was.... my dh reached in his pocket to give me the car keys and a $10.00 bill floated to the floor. I know to some this may seem coincidental, but for one, my husband never has cash and he forgot it was there from the week before and two, it FELT like a reminder to me. To rest easy, because "money flows easily to me."

THEN.... I was online at Edina Reality website looking at houses. I was looking at the types of houses I want to live in, without considering cost. The ones I love seem to be in the 1.5 million range. I dont' want something obsenely huge, just something nice in the woods someplace. And all the houses I genuinely liked seemed to be 1.5 million. I go to let my dog out and what is lying on the door step??? An envelope that had the Edina Reality Logo on it! Two Realtors business cards were inside. I know they were just advertising.... but.... I dont' know..... that was all super weird to me!

So for a good 2-3 weeks I just felt so at ease, just KNOWING my financial freedom would come to me some how, some way. Keeping an open mind, it could be by my hard work, "luck" or whatever. Yes, I have been playing the lottery. I picked a quaint little convenience store that I like and I just buy one Powerball quick pick because that is all I would need to win and I feel to buy more would be saying I am doubtful. I remember the clerk's names because I plan on giving the one who sold it to me a generous tip. Well, obviously I have not won, or this story would be taking a wonderful new twist...

So here I am back to doubt, frustration, etc. Not because I didn't win the lottery, but because I don't KNOW what to do next. I also don't have that "knowing" feeling anymore that I truly do attract abundance. A part of me believes that the only way to attract abundance is through hard work, and frankly, I feel I am already working hard and I don't have much more to give...

So not sure what my point is other than to say I get it all.... I just don't know how to live it... and I am frustrated!

01-11-2008, 06:34 PM	#7 (permalink)
jawillie Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Minnesota Posts: 462	I don't believe I "know" Thanks for posting this. I have been finding articles much like this everywhere I look these days. Last week I as so mad. I am not happy with my job/career path. I have been trying to manifest something else, or even just an ANSWER to what to do next and I get nothing but frustration. Then I just got downright mad because I am SO miserable in my job, it is all I will ever get.... Does that make sense? I don't know how to fix it, so it's all I will get. I can't lie to myself that I love it. I have tried that and I ended up laughing hysterically. So when it comes to manifesting, I have been toying with this for a bit, but I am going for the "gusto" because frankly I want financial freedom. Yes, I want to be a service to others... I try to be a service to others all the time, but I do not want to work 60 hours a week. One day I did feel I "knew" I was financial free. I toyed with how that would feel. At the grocery store I had no worries about counting how much anything was... I bought what I wanted based on desire, not affordability. Turns out, when I can have anything I want, I really don't WANT everything... so I really didn't go overboard in our budget at all. But I honestly FELT "free"...... It's hard to explain. I KNEW I Was financially free. I went to Home Depot to use a $25.00 gift card I had received for CHristmas. Again.... I KNEW I was "financially free." I looked at kitchen cabinets and imagined what it would be to buy the ones I wanted just because I wanted them, not because they were all I could afford. I was SO LIGHTHEARTED. I had a smile on my face, people were saying hello to me, I was saying Hello back.... it was just awesome! So, I bought some supplies that came to $48, so I knew I would have to use my own money along with the card. I hand the cashier my check card and she looks at me surprised. She said, "You have enough on your Gift Card, infact, you have a credit of $6.21." So... the gift card was for $55.00!!!! I call my Mom and she said, no... they definitely only paid $25.00. WOW... did that ever add to my ability to feel financial free!! I KNEW money came to me easily. And it was.... my dh reached in his pocket to give me the car keys and a $10.00 bill floated to the floor. I know to some this may seem coincidental, but for one, my husband never has cash and he forgot it was there from the week before and two, it FELT like a reminder to me. To rest easy, because "money flows easily to me." THEN.... I was online at Edina Reality website looking at houses. I was looking at the types of houses I want to live in, without considering cost. The ones I love seem to be in the 1.5 million range. I dont' want something obsenely huge, just something nice in the woods someplace. And all the houses I genuinely liked seemed to be 1.5 million. I go to let my dog out and what is lying on the door step??? An envelope that had the Edina Reality Logo on it! Two Realtors business cards were inside. I know they were just advertising.... but.... I dont' know..... that was all super weird to me! So for a good 2-3 weeks I just felt so at ease, just KNOWING my financial freedom would come to me some how, some way. Keeping an open mind, it could be by my hard work, "luck" or whatever. Yes, I have been playing the lottery. I picked a quaint little convenience store that I like and I just buy one Powerball quick pick because that is all I would need to win and I feel to buy more would be saying I am doubtful. I remember the clerk's names because I plan on giving the one who sold it to me a generous tip. Well, obviously I have not won, or this story would be taking a wonderful new twist... So here I am back to doubt, frustration, etc. Not because I didn't win the lottery, but because I don't KNOW what to do next. I also don't have that "knowing" feeling anymore that I truly do attract abundance. A part of me believes that the only way to attract abundance is through hard work, and frankly, I feel I am already working hard and I don't have much more to give... So not sure what my point is other than to say I get it all.... I just don't know how to live it... and I am frustrated! Last edited by jawillie; 01-11-2008 at 06:39 PM.