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uberinquisitive · 01-11-2008, 04:44 PM

Hey everyone,

I'm meeting him on Tuesday to discuss things.

I will admit a couple of things: I freaked out and sent the "I change my mind, I don't want to break up anymore" email. As soon as I sent it, I regretted it.

Anyways, the bf hasn't responded to anything. Instead, he said he's very busy at work and let's meet Tuesday, face to face.

I feel so unbalanced. Yesterday, I started doing some EFT. Now there is this awful pressure and pain in my chest and throat. I woke up this morning, and thought, "I am feeling the pain I felt with my suicided fiancé." I haven't felt it since I started going out with my current bf. And now it's back, and it's f*cking horrible.

There are so many things happening at once: this issue with my bf, the 1-yr anniversary of the suicide coming up on Jan. 20, going on a lot of job interviews and waiting for the results, being broke and worrying about money issues, hating where I live, trying to get my writing and screenplay done and feeling blocked...

I have barely spoken a word (except at job interviews) for almost a week now. My cousin, who I live with, tries to talk to me, and I just can't speak. Very unusual, because I am a typical extroverted woman, and love to talk about my feelings.

I feel trapped in every area of my life. It's like there is this steam building up inside of me, with no where to vent. I can barely sleep. I barely eat.

I feel like I'm waiting for something, but I don't know what it is.

01-11-2008, 04:44 PM	#10 (permalink)
uberinquisitive Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Posts: 634	Hey everyone, I'm meeting him on Tuesday to discuss things. I will admit a couple of things: I freaked out and sent the "I change my mind, I don't want to break up anymore" email. As soon as I sent it, I regretted it. Anyways, the bf hasn't responded to anything. Instead, he said he's very busy at work and let's meet Tuesday, face to face. I feel so unbalanced. Yesterday, I started doing some EFT. Now there is this awful pressure and pain in my chest and throat. I woke up this morning, and thought, "I am feeling the pain I felt with my suicided fiancé." I haven't felt it since I started going out with my current bf. And now it's back, and it's f*cking horrible. There are so many things happening at once: this issue with my bf, the 1-yr anniversary of the suicide coming up on Jan. 20, going on a lot of job interviews and waiting for the results, being broke and worrying about money issues, hating where I live, trying to get my writing and screenplay done and feeling blocked... I have barely spoken a word (except at job interviews) for almost a week now. My cousin, who I live with, tries to talk to me, and I just can't speak. Very unusual, because I am a typical extroverted woman, and love to talk about my feelings. I feel trapped in every area of my life. It's like there is this steam building up inside of me, with no where to vent. I can barely sleep. I barely eat. I feel like I'm waiting for something, but I don't know what it is.