I agree with metaphy on this one: the obsessive thoughts are your main problem. I've been hit with the same thing as you. Unfortunately, I can't offer you much except for a bad joke.
Think of it this way: if OCD-thoughts could manifest themselves, wouldn't life be a little... insane? When I was younger I
literally couldn't stop thinking about cartoons and whatever catastrophe that was on the news: combine those two things together, toss in the LoA as you're imagining it, and we'd all be neck-deep in fireball-throwing rabbits and misfired nukes.
Stop and think what
your unstoppable childhood mind-rants would've done to us all if they turned into reality!
I told it was gonna be bad, folks.
If you overcome your OCD, send a few tips my way: I can only work around it for now, and I've only got so much anime to distract myself. I wish you the
best of the
best of luck, David. Kick this pig and get on with your life!