Honey, I read your original post yesterday morning and had to take off out the door for my first day back at work since the holidays began. Your words were running through my head all day, I think because I identify with them SO!
Let me say that I was a little surprised to hear such thoughts coming from you! From your participation in this forum, I see you as a strong and sensitive woman raising her children and cruising from one level of PD to the next, with one foot in the ethereal and the other firmly planted on solid ground
When I saw your name on a post, I made SURE to read it!!
Your doubts and insecurities are incredibly familiar to me. Your feelings about others who seem so entitled are also feelings I can relate to. I used to feel like a total outsider, like there was a huge secret about life and being happy and being confident that everyone knew except for me. Not anymore.
As Clarity said, you have started the journey and it takes a lot of practice. For me it was a very very gradual process with a lot of missteps. For years it seemed as if I took three steps forward and two steps back!!
But I got there! You'll get there! And the journey is rewarding and eye-opening and I'm a stronger person for it. You will be, too.