[DQueens]

I was skeptical over whether, what I began to think of was a "coming into consciousness" was a real state of depression, but now that i have let my negative thoughts and emotions come over me, it has become clear.

I dont like my life.

I am dissatisfied with my friends, with my daily routine, with my social situations, my body and what it can do and my educational experience. I am intrigued by the law of attraction, and understand that my negative thoughts and the negative things that are happening to me, that i am accepting and expecting are manifesting themselves, and creating a feedback loop. i need help to stop this loop. it is hard because i begin trying to manifest good things with a shred of doubt in my mind and, therefore, it doesnt work. also, i dont really know WHAT it is i want. the things i want now are just starters...things that are superficial and i know arent really important to me, but the trouble is i dont know what the truely important things are yet...

but maybe some of you can provide me with advice for manifesting some simple things (i call them simple, but to some they are the most important things in life...).

I want to be become more satisifed with my university program, to learn more, to manifest better grades and more opportunity educationally.

I want a prospect for a romantic relationship with someone i like to manifest.

I want to become a better athlete and manifest better race results.

i want to manifest more friendships with new people and manifest more people to go out with and experience.

but most of all, right now, i want to manifest a positive outlook on life, and break the cycle of the feedback loop that is causing me to tread through my days like a shell of a person. i want to stop feeling dead in side, and something tells me that I-M can help me do that, if i only learn to have faith in the process and learn to manifest things.

please give me advice and suggestions.