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I've been sitting on this weird event that happened between me and my boyfriend for quite some time now because I don't know what to make of it and perhaps some of the members on this forum with their experience would.

The event in question happened on a dose of LSD and I'm hoping that fact will not provoke people to not take this event seriously. If it does, humor me please. The other party and I are both very experienced in the psychedelic mind state and with understanding the subjective quality it creates with experience. What happened between us however was something beyond a normal human experience and a normal psychedelic experience.

I've had telepathic experiences with this person before but it was usually subtle - reading each other's thoughts and shared experiences. At times we can be extremely connective and it has nothing to do with altered mind states via psychedelics.

The entire night in question we had been conversing and connecting, taking our interactive closeness further and further until it seemed to reach a breaking point where involuntarily - our mental connection was the center point of everything that was happening. It began to feel jarring and intense and right around this moment the most outrageous thing began happening. Looking into my partner's eyes, I would get flashes of seeing out of his eyes into my own and back and forth and back and forth.... etc.

I couldn't believe it. Could not believe it. It defied all logical explanation but it continued happening only for moments at a time but what I saw through both his eyes and my own was undeniable. I'm very familiar with my head and my mind in altered states to know that this was without a doubt, not a creation of my own mind. What else is that my partner also knew exactly what was going on and seemed to be instigating it with his own abilities. He verified this by confirming that he knew that he was doing something of this nature but was baffled by the fact because he had never done it before.

He became very fascinated by this ability while I remained in a somewhat state of shock. I knew what was happening between us but at the same time, I was concerned because it felt outside of my control. At this point internally, I decided that I didn't want to experience that connectivity any more as it was distressing me but the "connection" between us continued and seemed to be escalating out of control. He was definitely doing something to me, something he wasn't even entirely sure of what.

The psychic/mental sensation was further compounded by eye contact and at a certain point, it couldn't even be stopped. The feeling to me began to hurt and be very uncomfortable for me in a psychic way. It felt violating and overpowering. Not just that the experience was overpowering - but that I was being overpowered psychically. It felt very rough and violent. As if I was being broken down and into. I became very scared and felt that my individual consciousness was being attacked and was in jeopardy.

The danger I felt was that my own power and significance was being nullified by a greater force.

My partner was baffled by my reaction but it was clear that we were having two entirely different experiences. After the event he reported that by whatever means he was employing, he felt he had the ability to navigate my consciousness. He viewed it as an extreme curiosity that something of this nature is even possible while I felt victimized and overpowered through the whole ordeal. He wasn't intending to harm me in any way but the situation seemed to get out of control. Afterwards, I was alright since I managed to break the connection between us, but I felt very drained and weakened mentally.

As I said before, I expect a lot of readers to frown upon the fact that a psychedelic was involved but it is in my opinion that all a drug can do is empower and enable what already exists in one's own mind. I do not advocate the use of any mind altering substances what-so-ever. They can be extremely volatile in effects and not to mention.... are illegal! (For those who are curious, I have abstained from any kind of experimentation of this kind ever since.)

until I found this forum, my story and questions seemed to have no home. I'd appreciate hearing any body's thoughts on the matter - particularly if you've experienced or seen anything like this happen before (and not just on a psychedelic.) Thank you for reading.