thanks guys for all your replys and Ive kinda come around to the idea that I am feeling so hurt insude because I really don't love myself at all. I love myself when other people think Im great and I hate myself when other people dislike me. Not good. Anyway my mission for 2008 is to really love myself, really care for myself and really grow strong within. Now I have narrowed down my mission the next thing is to actually do it! does this make any sense to any of you. If I was to list some of my good qualities I would list the following:
loyal
kind
honest
genuine
understanding
non-judgemental
loving
sensitive
attractive
talented
intelligent
quite a healthy list I think and the list of someone who would appear to have high self esteem. What I don't understand is why oh why can I still not love myself in my heart when my head thinks all of these good things about myself????? I dont understand what my problem is, normally with someone who is not happy in themselves and who has low self esteem the list would be more bad qualities than good but mine is more good than bad and I still have this block in the road I can't get passed!
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