Ive been doing alot of research since people started to tell me that there is something wrong with me. And what I have found is this:
High-functioning autism - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
This article pretty much describes me in almost every way.
-Autistic people are prone to commit social faux pas because of an inability to predict others' reactions.
I sometime freeze for a short time because I have this problem alot and have a delayed response. And sometimes I dont even realize that my response was delayed.
-They may also neglect social niceties like knocking or returning a greeting.
Anyone who knows me knows I do this, I dont mean to. But sometimes I dont know which greeting to use so I say nothing at all. Or I just dont want to speak at the time.
-Similarly, they may be overly trusting or paranoid of strangers.
People tell me that I am overly trusing and generous with people I meet. But I just thought that It is good to give people the benefit of doubt. I dont know..
-It may be best summed up as an inability to understand/perceive the intent or emotional wants and needs of others around them.
This is completely true, unless someone tells me what they want it is very difficult for me to understand what they want.. although I try to make guesses based opon information I know at the time. And I have a hard time communicating my own emotions.
-They may appear somewhat removed or dissociated or dreamy at times, especially when in sensory overload or from a perception of extreme social pressure.
I do this alot and it makes people mad because they think im not listening too them. I dont do it on purpose though alot of the time I will be writing a program or thinking about something and ill be "in the zone", I think thats a good way to describe it.
-They may make little eye contact, leading others to conclude that they are shy, uninterested or evasive.
I used to be like this 100% but over time have practiced at looking people in the eyes, its not that difficult actually.
-Unlike those with low-functioning autism, people with high-functioning autism are not mentally retarded; persons with high-functioning autism have an IQ at the average to above-average range.
my IQ is above average at 126 from my latest test when i was 16.
-Although they may have an adequate vocabulary, they may have a delay in communicating events and use less emotional content in their speech.
yup thats me...
-They may also appear not to notice non-verbal cues from others such as when others have become bored with the topic of conversation they appear oblivious and continue.
THIS IS ONE OF MY MAJOR PROBLEMS, that people talk about me when I leave the room but dont say anything to my face so.. for a long time I never realized how bad it was.
-As with people elsewhere on the autistic spectrum, people with high-functioning autism generally prefer routine and order, and this usually begins in early childhood.
Yes, I love a schedule over the unexpected which sometimes can cause axiety.
-Young, intelligent HFA people usually do best by seeking out the company of their intellectual peers or by joining hobby groups, while avoiding their age-group peers
This was me 100% growing up.
-They do not lack empathy[citation needed] (although they may have difficulty expressing it), and can thus enjoy films and stories with emotional content. Some may gain the bulk of their insight into why people behave the way they do through watching movies that provide a forceful and musically-cued "capsule lesson" in human emotions (e.g. melodramas).
I can actually feel emotion from sad movies and yes I cry.. I experience a state of "suspension of disbelief" that is more powerful than almost every other person I have met.
-hey are usually intelligent, gifted, honest, hard workers when interested in a task and excellent problem solvers. People with HFA are thought to become excellent scientists and engineers or enter other professions where painstaking, methodical analysis is required.
I write Software.....
Also, I have had insomnia ever since I can remember and unless I am very tired when I goto sleep I just lay there for hours and hours. And then i found this:
Insomnia is a frequent finding in adults with Asperger syndrome
and then there is this:
Conclusion: if I dont have HFA what is wrong with me, how can I not have it?