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cylon · 01-05-2008, 08:59 AM

Cool ALG. When the synchronicites started, I kept saying "coincidence", but they happened too frequently. I can't deny what I'm seeing happening around me... but it really SCARED me. Of course when they happened, they weren't scary AT ALL... every time a "synkro" would happen I felt fantastic.

It was AFTER, when I was back in the state of my every day "negativity" that I had to deal with this sci-fi stuff that seemed to be happening in my life. It's a lot to process. Like... if you decided one day "man, I want to understand French" then you'd start hearing people speak in French and you'd be like "wow! I don't even know French and I can understand this language! Cool!"

Then a little while later you'd think "Uh... I don't speak French. Why am I understanding a language I never learned. I'm getting a little freaked out here. This isn't normal. No more French."

So like you said, I've changed my goals for the time being. I want to draw as many things into my life that make me feel good and deserving of abundance. It's the only way of facing this "new" reality. I like many people grew up thinking you only got the good stuff if you struggled for it, that you weren't worth much unless you really suffered in life. So to go from that to actually GETTING something without having to EARN it is a big value/self-image change.

So I'm facing a lifetime of negative self-image, mixed in with people on tv repeating the things I write down as I write them and people calling me that I haven't talked to in ages just a few hours after I think "I wonder what they are up to". Or it's my birthday and I am thinking "you know, there's a lot of abundance in my life" and there's a $20 bill lying in the street. Sometimes it's too much.

I don't want to "bust my ass" for what I want. What I want is to feel good about not having to bust my ass in the first place.

Future posts will be more to the point. This is a good place to "let it out".

(PS-- much of this stuff started happening after I rediscovered a book I bought years ago "the Tao of Psychology" which is about Jung)

01-05-2008, 08:59 AM	#163 (permalink)
cylon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Posts: 4,634	Cool ALG. When the synchronicites started, I kept saying "coincidence", but they happened too frequently. I can't deny what I'm seeing happening around me... but it really SCARED me. Of course when they happened, they weren't scary AT ALL... every time a "synkro" would happen I felt fantastic. It was AFTER, when I was back in the state of my every day "negativity" that I had to deal with this sci-fi stuff that seemed to be happening in my life. It's a lot to process. Like... if you decided one day "man, I want to understand French" then you'd start hearing people speak in French and you'd be like "wow! I don't even know French and I can understand this language! Cool!" Then a little while later you'd think "Uh... I don't speak French. Why am I understanding a language I never learned. I'm getting a little freaked out here. This isn't normal. No more French." So like you said, I've changed my goals for the time being. I want to draw as many things into my life that make me feel good and deserving of abundance. It's the only way of facing this "new" reality. I like many people grew up thinking you only got the good stuff if you struggled for it, that you weren't worth much unless you really suffered in life. So to go from that to actually GETTING something without having to EARN it is a big value/self-image change. So I'm facing a lifetime of negative self-image, mixed in with people on tv repeating the things I write down as I write them and people calling me that I haven't talked to in ages just a few hours after I think "I wonder what they are up to". Or it's my birthday and I am thinking "you know, there's a lot of abundance in my life" and there's a $20 bill lying in the street. Sometimes it's too much. I don't want to "bust my ass" for what I want. What I want is to feel good about not having to bust my ass in the first place. Future posts will be more to the point. This is a good place to "let it out". (PS-- much of this stuff started happening after I rediscovered a book I bought years ago "the Tao of Psychology" which is about Jung) Last edited by cylon; 01-05-2008 at 09:07 AM.