Personal Development for Smart People Forums - View Single Post - Swirling through cycles of deep insecurity, please help me

templanoid · 01-04-2008, 08:08 AM

Thanks for the kind replies so far guys, I really appreciate it!

JimOfferman: Well to be honest, here's what I think about myself. I actually do think that I'm sort of interesting..but in my own very personal way. I have interests in logical philosophies and things like that, but then all the stuff I find interesting seems to be only the black and white things like how stuff works, logic, or etc. I don't seem to have a mind, or a way of thinking, that can come up with entertaining concepts..and this is what is putting me down I think.

frajilthunder: Thanks for that! I just searched for toastmasters thailand and did find several pretty active toastmaster clubs here, however I dont know if I have the time to join, or if I will even be bothered..but I wish I do join it sometime soon.

And about self-love: This is one aspect of my life I'm really unsure about. I've never actually sat down and thought err "how much i love myself?" I've very apathetic to that concept.

Speaking of which, I feel that overall in my life I'm a pretty apathetic person.

I feel like I do not care for anything or anyone at times, which is what has caused me to become like this...so in the times when I *do* care about something or someone/people, it really effects me. I have interests in computers, science, the goth subculture, philosophy, comedy, etc...but then I feel that I'm not bothered to be actively participating in these things as much as I should be.

I feel easily tired and exhausted that causes me to be very care-free about anything...this is when I'm alone. And when I'm with other people who appear very interesting and are very vigilant about what's going on around them and seemingly have the abilities to think very fast...it really puts me down. I feel like I've grown up to be someone I never wanted to be.

I'm very quiet in groups, so quiet that there have been situations where a new person would be introduced by my friends to everyone in the group except me...this can really hurt at times.

I believe that talking well is not simply a learnable skill. I really believe that talking well comes from what's inside your mind, the way you think and your ability to notice and interpret other things, isn't this true?

01-04-2008, 08:08 AM	#8 (permalink)
templanoid Junior Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 16	Thanks for the kind replies so far guys, I really appreciate it! JimOfferman: Well to be honest, here's what I think about myself. I actually do think that I'm sort of interesting..but in my own very personal way. I have interests in logical philosophies and things like that, but then all the stuff I find interesting seems to be only the black and white things like how stuff works, logic, or etc. I don't seem to have a mind, or a way of thinking, that can come up with entertaining concepts..and this is what is putting me down I think. frajilthunder: Thanks for that! I just searched for toastmasters thailand and did find several pretty active toastmaster clubs here, however I dont know if I have the time to join, or if I will even be bothered..but I wish I do join it sometime soon. And about self-love: This is one aspect of my life I'm really unsure about. I've never actually sat down and thought err "how much i love myself?" I've very apathetic to that concept. Speaking of which, I feel that overall in my life I'm a pretty apathetic person. I feel like I do not care for anything or anyone at times, which is what has caused me to become like this...so in the times when I do care about something or someone/people, it really effects me. I have interests in computers, science, the goth subculture, philosophy, comedy, etc...but then I feel that I'm not bothered to be actively participating in these things as much as I should be. I feel easily tired and exhausted that causes me to be very care-free about anything...this is when I'm alone. And when I'm with other people who appear very interesting and are very vigilant about what's going on around them and seemingly have the abilities to think very fast...it really puts me down. I feel like I've grown up to be someone I never wanted to be. I'm very quiet in groups, so quiet that there have been situations where a new person would be introduced by my friends to everyone in the group except me...this can really hurt at times. I believe that talking well is not simply a learnable skill. I really believe that talking well comes from what's inside your mind, the way you think and your ability to notice and interpret other things, isn't this true?