Rose: good obvious point (as far as what the girls want). I know older women can be fun; and I know that the age difference isn’t that great of a deal. (All of my sisters have husbands 5-10 years older than them). Maybe we (me and woman involved) perceive the age difference to be a hindering block because of my starting age. Oh, and some of them told me straight out that they were afraid. I guess I just don’t know how to handle other people’s fears; to help them step out of that mindset. I don’t care if the girl comes to me and just says she don’t want anything serious; it’s the ones who say they want it, for the most part give it, but won’t admit to it. I.E. the girl who checks up on me, sleeps with me, cries on my shoulder, goes out with me and yet won’t admit I’m anything but a friend. Maybe our definition of friend is different, because I don’t usually sleep with friends (see below)
M18pak: Essentially, yes; that’s all I need, but casual sex with a friend is something I’m not fond of (I don’t enjoy being promiscuous (born and bred with traditional beliefs)). I want a girl that I’m going to date; not just for (her/my) booty calls.
NotesMaeve: I’m not really enjoying this aspect of my life. I’m attempting to understand why I don’t enjoy it and what it is that I can do to help change it.
Terumoto: Yeah, let me re-read that 8 or 9 more times. As far as the time I spend on the internet; well I develop web-sites for a living it only makes sense I surf when I’m bored. (I.e. I’m at work now; I don’t really use the computer at home except for movies and music)
I guess, from these responses, and mostly from just asking and venting my thoughts that I’m starting to see some steps to take. Someone told me a couple years ago that 18-22 would be the hardest part of my life, internally. I see that I’m not yet a man, and I think that’s where the problem with trying to date a women comes in. But I’m not a boy either; leaving me unsure how to act around my female peers; and perhaps that’s it: that I just don’t know how to act around any of my peers. But when searching for good friends I easily look outside of that group of people, however I feel an intense desire to be with a girl my own age. so what's next?
-dm
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