Originally Posted by Allison James
I have nothing left to give, traces of feelings of love - hurt actually overwhelms me and hurts so much.
medication? because of depressions?
Can't help you with you last sentence, sorry. But the one I quoted: see that these are conditions created in your early childhood and afterwards, kind of vicious cycle: we get hurt in our premium period, are vulnerable and defend us with layers around our true self.. which becomes hidden more and more, and we only feel and see our ego (which is nothing but the "clothes" around the real self, ego's real and only task is only to let us function in material world; one of the ego's aspect is our native language, personality traits etc...).
But all this does not matter, what really matters is our real self, which is hidden behind all those things you got caught into.
The first steps out of it are really well explained here: Meditation - Overcoming Stress & Illness
scroll a bit down until you see on the right side "LISTEN TO PODCASTS"; then you may listen to these three:
LISTEN TO PODCASTS
Part 1: The Introduction
Part 2: The Free Guided Meditation
Part 3: The Commentary
All in all, the three together last a bit more than half an hour. Part 2 lasts around 10 minutes.
All of this is worthwhile.
I think this is worthwhile before all other attempts of meditation-exercises etc etc.
Further down on the same site there are other podcasts, which may be interesting, too.
Hope this helps, really.