thanks Jim what you say makes perfect sense to me but I don't know why I am not happy with myself, I think I am a nice person and deserve happiness but I feel worthless when other people don't see me as a good person, this is what effects me the most - what do they think of me. I can not seem to change this if I say to myself I value my opinion of me more than their opinion of me it just feels like a lie Im spinning to myself
