And an update post already. Since I need to get in the habit. I actually came up with this 'I need to put that LOA into action and I need to make some plan!' yesterday morning at six AM.
So yesterday I thought about it, went to this forum, read some posts, followed some links, read some 'mr wang says so', very good.
I installed a new copy of WordPress on my local machine to have a place to store all the writing I will do for this project.
I phrased my goal in the sentence
I make 3500 euros a month, doing what I love to do, and am grateful for that!
I wrote '€3500,-' on the chalkboard on the door of the restroom.
I wrote some thoughts down.
I wrote about how it would feel to be making 3500 euros a month and what I could do with that for my family.
And the project was in my head all day.
Tomorrow I woke up thinking '3500 euros... 3500 euros...' I might even have been walking around like a zombie, mumbling these words with a scary look in my eyes
But I was a bit stressed. Feeling a bit unsecure about it all, feeling a bit strange in the head, as if my head was still trying to create some space for the fact that I was actually going to go through with this insane plan...
But when I was sitting in the train later on, on my way to meet and have breakfast with my two older sisters in another city, near the end of the journey I decided to listen to some music, and the lyrics of the song that came up, which I must have heard many times before, suddenly struck me and encouraged me, cheering me up. The lyrics were these:
Quote:
There’s a foul taste in my mouth today
I’m looking at the world from my fragile bubble
Turning me inside out, tipping me upside down
Undermining, suffocating pressure
I will find my own space to breath
New life living in me
Go with the sun
Reach for the hand of a guardian angel
Go with the sun
Leaving the past that would hold me down
Go with the sun
Breaking the chains of a life of tradition
Go with the sun
Leaving this place for another time
Never look back into yesterday
No pillar of salt in the desert sunshine
Being the here and now and seeing beyond my dreams
Stimulating, celebrating
I will find my own space to breath
New life living in me
(and then some more repetition)
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As sung by Shaz Sparks in the song
Go with the sun by UK-based group DBA. A bit dry to read, misses a lot emotion without hearing the actual song, but the lyrics do give an impression about how it helped me. A song I'll be keeping on my playlist for the days to come.
And then tonight I wrote the post above, which really helped me get into this project some more. Now it's time to go to sleep, then tomorrow I'll read mr wang's
How to write down your goals and so some writing and some visualising.
And then tomorrow night off course there'll be new year's eve! To everyone reading this, I wish you a great time and a happy new year!