[charlie1]

Hi, my name is Charlie. (im 15, but don't make a huge deal about that)
Well this is about my girlfriend Jessica (the love of my life)
I am addicted to her, and yes its obvious.
Okay, we have been dating about five months now, and this is my first serious relationship. Shes been in a few, gotten her heart broken and broken others. But she loves me.
After a few weeks after we started dating, i started to change and worry about her constantly. I would always get these feelings that she likes someone else or something like that, and the feelings turned me into what i consider a baby.
When i got the feelings i would get all worried and tell her how i felt and what i thought, and she would tell me thats not true ect ect. and it would cheer me up. But it would also hurt her when i told her about them because she didnt like me thinking things like that.
As time passed i started to get better about it and tried to stay calm, but yes, i would get another feeling like that every once in a while, just because sometimes it seemed like she didnt care or she didnt love me.
And she hated when i thought that.

I guesse after reading that, your wondering why she loves me. Well thats because I help her with her problems and am there for her and she used to say theres no other guy like me and that she loved that abouit me.

Well, I guesse i get so worried because I know i can't lose her because i know shes the one, and if she ever leaves me, i tell myself i would never move on.
I want us to be together forever, and she says she does too (well she doesnt say that as much as she used to) (i know we're only 15, but love over age is what i say.)
She also used to say to me, "never leave me." but she doesn't anymore because i guesse she figured out i never will.
We live in different towns. About 20 minutes apart from each other. And her parents wouldn't let her date at first, so i would have to get my parents to bring me to her schools football games just to see her. Then i met her parents and they let her date me now, so i go to her house and she comes to mine and im loving it.

Theres so many more things to say but im just going to go ahead and get to the problem.
Well theres a guy. His name is James. He and jessica used to like each other alot, (before i knew her) but they knew they couldnt be together because they lived 2 hours apart, and wouilid never be able to see each other.
And before we started dating, she told me about him and everything, then we started dating and i forgot all about him. But a few weeks ago i found out that she texts him. (and she expects me to believe they are just friends and she has no feelings for him.) So i tried to ignore the fact that they text.
Then one night we were talking on the phone, and she was texting him on a different phone and telling me funny stuff he was saying. ( i hated that because she was on the phone with me and texting him at the same time.) but i kept my mouth shut and didnt say anything.
About a week ago, i told her i dont like him. She was like why?!! and was getting all upset, and i was like why does it matter if dont like him. And she said because i care about him because hes like my best friend!
That got my a little upset, and later that say i said, "you text him all the time!" and she replied, "I just started texting him all the time." So i say to myself, whats that suppose to mean?" and i ask her, and she was like, "I dunno" Then i got the idea that she liked him and i told her i thought that and she was like No!, we're just friends. And i was acting like i believed her, and we quit talking about it.
But tonight we were texting each other and she randomly stopped texting me, and i was like hello?? and about 30 minutes later she, "sorry im on the phone." And i say, :/ with who?
And she says, "James! Y?"
(and at that moment i just got a horrible feeling, my heart was pounding and my blood was just rushing through my body, and i felt that she like him and didnt care what i thought about it)
So i replied, O my god.. And she was like what? and i said o my god again and she was like what?!!. And i said, "James....."
and she said "what about him?" And i said, Your talking on the phone with him!! dont act clueless."
And she was like, yeah, so, hes just a friend.
(No i didnt believe that at all).
And at that moment, I felt so powerless. I was making such a big deal out of it, and whinning and acting all dramatic. And she was like hes just a friend, get over it!!


and no i didnt believe her at ALL. And i still dont (it was only a few hours ago)
Ok, i've never even spoken to this guy, but he and my girlfriend talk on the phone together?
I hate this!!

And yeah, she gets mad at me when i act all dramatic.
It feels like she doesnt care at all how i feel anymore.
Its just that she is the only thing that matters to me, but theres so much more things that matter to her. And it seems like she'd be fine without me...
But i would be destroyed. (it feels like shes the man in this relationship, because shes just SO independant) ugh

I need advice, about her and this guy, and all of this.
I know my grammer isnt good, but im just saying how i feel...