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Amatrine · 12-28-2007, 01:03 AM

I am not suicidal, but I have this thing where when I am afraid of something, I want to face it and get it over with. So sometimes I think, I wish I could do death, and have it over with, so I no longer fear it, but that can not be done.
Mabey if I had an NDE. I told my psychologist that, and she got this strange look, and said you actually wish you could have one? In disbelief. I said yes.
I only read what others opinions are on them, and others experiences. Mabey if I had my own, I would no longer fear it? Anyway, I understand that fear.
I think we all fear it, most put it on the backbuner, and let the chores of daily life, block that fear. When it comes time, I think most are going to be frightened. Mabey I am wrong, but I doubt it. I fear the pain of dying since I am allergic to every pain medication just about on this planet, so no morphine sleep for me. If they gave me something like that, it would be the worst way to go out, with the side effects I have. Anyway, Im rambling. Sorry.
I still feel I will exist, but we never really know until we get there.

12-28-2007, 01:03 AM	#6 (permalink)
Amatrine Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 61	Re I am not suicidal, but I have this thing where when I am afraid of something, I want to face it and get it over with. So sometimes I think, I wish I could do death, and have it over with, so I no longer fear it, but that can not be done. Mabey if I had an NDE. I told my psychologist that, and she got this strange look, and said you actually wish you could have one? In disbelief. I said yes. I only read what others opinions are on them, and others experiences. Mabey if I had my own, I would no longer fear it? Anyway, I understand that fear. I think we all fear it, most put it on the backbuner, and let the chores of daily life, block that fear. When it comes time, I think most are going to be frightened. Mabey I am wrong, but I doubt it. I fear the pain of dying since I am allergic to every pain medication just about on this planet, so no morphine sleep for me. If they gave me something like that, it would be the worst way to go out, with the side effects I have. Anyway, Im rambling. Sorry. I still feel I will exist, but we never really know until we get there.