[loveliketheflowers]

did i bring this onto myself? why do i keep meeting bad men over and over. i wasn't even exclusive or "in a relationship" with him. but i still got burned and hurt. what happened to me? how did i become one of the statistics...oh and to add to the story...after my friend told me his wife is pregnant, she texts him and tells him "thx for letting me give a great xmas gift to my friend". and he goes to the bar we were at and all denying it. but he was so angry and upset and yelling. she kept telling him that he was lying and that he did tell her plus showed naked pics of me and other women to hear and tried to get her to have a 3some with us...he pours my white russian alcoholic drink on her head!?!??! i was frozen. it was like i was in another dream but i had entered a nightmare. is this really happening to me in real life?? then he pulls me by my jacket and pushes me out the bar and tells me to come on. i was so weak, so lost, so not wanting to go back home to my parents to deal with them and their strictness. but my friend (shes not my friend friend, but i know her and she invited me yesterday out, i thought i was going to be alone on xmas and jus stay home). she yelled "are u really gonna leave with a guy like that!!". she kept saying it. and at first i was saying "i have no where else to go, i dont have anyone else, i cut all my friends and family off...". then it clicked in my mind, dont go with him. i said to him "u pour a drink on a woman, who does that?? ur 36yrs old and married with kids". i left with her.

but jus why did this happen. but also answer my question before this post. how do u stop the hurt? how do u get rid of the person or stop yourself from contacting or thinking about the person? i understand u should forgive like termutoto (sorry i spelled that totally wrong but i dont feel like going back and looking) says. but how exactly do u do this? im finally going to have the opportunity to get back on a positive good track. my grandparents found out about me dancing. although they were not happy, they said they still loved me and never want me doing that type of thing again, especially when i never had to in the first place. i just wanted to gain some responsibility and get my own money and pay off my bills and fix everything myself. but i see that family is what i need. just please give me some advice. be sure to read both of my postings so it all makes sense. thank you all good nice ppl. thank u last person who jus replied to me first. im going to try to forgive and move on. but how though? how can i just move on and just live my life for me again.