I guess I am kind of like an explorer. If I lived back in the day, I would have hitched a ride on one of the boats of exploration. I admit it is always a bit scarey moving somewhere new, but the exitement of it all overides any fear.
I remember years ago when I moved to Reno, I made the decision to move there, I sold everything, and two weeks later hopped a plane. Not even a residence established yet. I do not have that kind of crazy nerve now,lol
I do remember sitting in a bar the night before the flight there, and watching tv, thinking " what will I be doing a week from now at this time? " That was a pivitol time in memories that I look back on that coursed for a change of life.
I was nervouse as hell, but still did it. Best thing I ever did. Met my husband up there, did a lot of growing there. I stayed at a hotel first couple of nights,
got a job rite away, and rented a room in an girls home, the rest was history.
I had $160 bucks in my pocket when I took that flight up there, I was a bit madd I guess
But I did prove to myself that anything is possible.
It was funny, when I first got there, I went to a job center and had a counseler who was tryign to find me work. He did this as volunteer work,
6 months later, I was managing a bar, and was hiring, he responded to the ad, and I ended up Hiring HIM as bouncer
Funny world.
Rite now we can move to three different states. Each one would be a different course in what affects our life. I am waying the pros and cons of each, and doing a lot of meditation, and trying to rely on my instinct of what feels to be the correct course. I just know my time here in Phoenix is up.
There is nowhere else for me to go here, and it hinders my health. So now I am looking at what is going to be the best for my daughters future. Staying here, shed be ok. Pennsylvania, good schools, but we could ony buy a house on the lowest end. She would be in a not so good neighbordhood, but its a small town and low crime. Michigan,.. good home, good neighborhood, and school, but we deal with very cold winter, mosquitos as large as cats, but another pro, she will have her college paid for there with the Kalamazoo promise. We are steering for Michigan . All those lakes, in fact looking at a house next to a lake. She would have childhood memories of growing up on a lake, ice skating, boating,... and rural community, but only 10 miles away from city. I get to be close to nature , like I like. So sick of desert. Give me some trees and water! I can dea with cold. Its just the lack of sun that scares me.
At least now I analize things. When I was younger, I was very spontaneous.
Now I am still adventerous, but prepared, and like things well thought out