[MyBrainHurts]

I didn't find it anymore, but if I remember correctly, you said that you have some problems with guessing what someone feels when you look at their face, is that correct? That gave me an idea: maybe you have a high AQ? (Autism Quotient) That wouldn't mean that you're an autist, my AQ is 45 (that's very high), and I'm not an autist. But it would explain a lot of your problems with socializing. So since you have a very rational approach on all questions, maybe you could start with checking your AQ?

I took the test and answered all questions honestly.

I understand that you feel unjustly treated. You're making a lot of efforts to socialize, and all you get is being told how bad you are. That's very frustrating. Maybe you just want him to aknowledge your efforts, or to be kind to you, or to like you? I don't know. But why is it such a problem for you that some guy (that you find has so many bad attributes anyway) doesn't honor you?

I think that my problem is that I am unable to understand his reasoning or analyze what he says, it seems chaotic. Perhaps when I listen to people I am more involved in understanding there reasoning ability and logic and the reason why they are saying what they are saying instead of actually listening or understanding the core of what they are saying, which I eventually get to but am slower to react to if that makes any sense. I guess it makes people feel as if im not listening.

I understand that you feel unjustly treated. You're making a lot of efforts to socialize, and all you get is being told how bad you are. That's very frustrating. Maybe you just want him to acknowledge your efforts, or to be kind to you, or to like you? I don't know. But why is it such a problem for you that some guy (that you find has so many bad attributes anyway) doesn't honor you?

I used to not speak to anyone but only observe and analyze, only reasontly have I made an effort to be in the picture instead of looking at it from various angles.

I'm going to be very direct: I think that you have a major lack of social skills indeed. From what I've read so far, you really seem to have a problem in that area. However, the reason is not your introversion. I'm a strongly introverted person, but I don't lack social skills. (Or I lack them so much that I don't even notice it )

I agree, but it can be difficult to maintain extreme control over my "natural" state of thought for long periods of time, I can manage it in short bursts.

MyBrainHurts (funny nickname, why does your brain hurt?),

Because when I want to stop thinking I cant, the more I try to not think, the more I think about things and the more I try to focus on one thing, the more involved I become in analyzing it from all perspectives and even the concepts that make up the principle or idea.
Sometimes it takes me hours to fall asleep and its extremely irritating and frustrating that I can not slow my mind down when I want it to be slow and calm without the help from external sources. I have to take downers when im having extreme insomnia.

Lets take counting sheep for example, when I think of counting sheep it involves numbers which gets me to thinking about the software that im writing which takes me abstract thinking and analysis. As corny as this may sound to you I am attracted to science fiction and love large dynamic universes such as star trek, babylon 5 and battlestar and often try to create an entire dynamic universe in my mind as a means to falling asleep which has proven more effective than focusing on something simple.

I do have a small fear of sleeping because I have entered lucidity over 100 times at least in my lifetime so far (something that has become a huge study subject) and have experienced things that seem real to me that other people can not even grasp, some of them so terrifying that I woke up in an altered state of mind and took several minutes to realize that I was even awake.

I am so analytical that even in my sleep I often become consciously aware.

What you think about him is not the truth. It's nothing more than your opinion based on your values. What he thinks about you is not the truth either. It's nothing more than his opinion based on his values. There is nothing to be hurt or to fight about.

I do not think negatively of him as some people have drawn that conclusion, I do not think he is an evil person or anything like that. He just does not help me to understand him and I lack the capability to engage him in a way to obtain useful information so that I can understand his reasoning.