Thank you for the replies they are really making me think and take other ideas into consideration.
Parthnon:
Your words are very inspiring and encouraging. I want to believe what you say with all my heart but it's not easy and I think it's going to take a lot of work.
Wolfgang,
Thank you for taking the time to give me the reality check that I am sensing through your words...BSITTO HE IS UNAVAILABLE WHY ARE YOU STILL THINKING ABOUT AN UNAVAILABLE GUY??? That pretty much covers it right?
I understand what you're saying especially if I continue to think this way then it's exactly what I'm going to end up getting in life - second best. Which is what your saying: that I'm going to create exactly what I'm thinking in my head. Unless I can somehow believe that this guy wasn't my one and only then I have a better chance of getting what I want. God its so hard. I wish I knew how. If I feel this way inside then its too hard to convince myself otherwise.
I understand what your saying its the same thing I've been hearing for a while and thats move on and be open to the idea that I will find better.
I guess the next step is HOW??? How do conquer such an impossible sounding task.
I know I keep mentioning chemistry and you said you can have chemistry with more than one person which I agree with but I guess I really need reassurance that if I meet someone else the chemistry will be as strong if not stronger. Im not sitting around waiting for this person. Im open to getting excited for someone new. I just wish somehow someone can just promise me or gaurantee me that on a chemistry scale that this guy was a 9 and I will meet a 10. Because the way I see it now he's a 10 and there is no such thing as 11.
RedFoxBot:
You seem to get exactly what I'm talking about and it gives me a spark of hope that all this could just be psychological. What made you realize it was you? and how were you able to prove to yourself that you didnt lose the love of your life? Was it just by realizing it was a psychological problem? It seems you have the answer. I read your post then I read it again. Did you nail it, you ask?? Oh my...and then some!! You described the emotion he gives me perfectly. I was trying to understand the psychological description of how this guy is connected to my deep rooted emotions. I think I understood what you meant for the most part and that he is basically tied not to my heart but to old, unresolved pain. Then what I did was create it into this undying love...am I on track?
Ok as far as your solution I am going to try what you said and I hope I can accomplish what you were able to. My mind control isnt that strong so I don't know if I can. Any other advice on how to let this person go from my mind would be greatly appreciated.
I'll tell you the part I have the hardest time with and thats the intense emotion I get just thinking about him. And remembering the intensity of the connection. It is so hard to believe that I can feel that strength with someone else. I've met a lot of people and so far it's never come close.
Thank you all again.....this feels like therapy and it helps.