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Does anyone else have this problem? I am a chronic nomad. I have lived probably in over 20 residences and I am 36. I am now again moving my family out of state. When I am somewhere a while, and do not feel I am going anywhere, or stagnent I guess I would call it, I have to move in.

I feel stuck, in the sense that progress in any way can no longer continue, I got all I can out of this place, and must move on , to learn new experiences.

I am now in the desert and ready to move to MI, for an extreme opposite.
I have come back to this city so many times in PHX, and I now just KNOW there is nothing here for me. I get chronicly bored and bordom maked me angry. I think I have a touch of ADD in that department, but its more than that. I have this need to experiecne new things, learn from them etc.
Rite now I am at a point, where I feel I have lived my life, and just cant seem
to learn anything new. Like the life experience is getting old . No, Im not suicidal, far from it, just feel kinda stuck, ... need a new situation to learn something, anything. Involving myself in things is only a bandaid. That helps
the physical mind for a while, but does not help me learn anything new.
This is hard to explain,lol I am hoping this new move will bring me to a different culture and mindset, from the west. Just something different to experience. I love learning . If I had the money, Id be off to another county,lol I did that once for a year many many years ago,..What a learning
expereince to get outside this bubble of our own country, see others views, see how history is tought different in other countries schools from thier viewpoint on something. ... I am always researching things, and that helps when I really get interested in a subject,... it helps expand my mind again, but it does nothing new to to change the feeling that I have experienced all there is that makes me who I am, and my viewpoints on humanity. When you are a kid, you see disney world the first time, you believe in magic. When you
are a teen, you experience independence . As an adult you experience responsability. You get sick, you experience fear and search your core beliefs. Once you do that, in my case, at first fear, and despereate to know the answers. Then a kind of peace that comes from understanding awareness.
Though I do not know why it brings me peace , it just does. ... So what now?
What is there left to experice ? What else is there in life that life can teach me? So here I go, packing up my bags, and off to where Ill freeze my but off,
but love the challenges that come with moving somewhere new, and again starting over. .... until that becomes mundane eventually.

Ama