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rubelin · 12-19-2007, 11:57 PM

My problem is that I am very clear about my medium but can't figure out my message and that seems to be really holding me back from going anywhere.

I've been sewing since I was 4 years old, it's something that has always been in my life even though I didn't look to it as a career until college. The thing that has become a problem is figuring how to make a viable living with this talent/passion of mine. I worked in the fashion industry for several years and it definitely was not a great fit for my soul, in fact, I left school because I hated the fashion industry, but got pulled back into it because I love the work, just not the jobs that are available there. I know that I love to sew, love textiles and all that involves, but I hate the marketing, selling and all that stuff that is in that industry.

I've has a tiny sewing business for many years, but have no capital to expand and it's very limited creatively, since I can't expand to more designs because I can't afford to have help in making what I already sell. I also have felt horribly guilty for many, many years that what I love to do doesn't contribute much value to humanity. In my life I try to limit consumerism and possesions, yet commerce is intrinsically wrapped up in selling the clothing I make and it seems that our society doesn't value quality and only wants more crap for cheap. I feel bad charging for a quality product but can't afford to donate my life to my business and can't stand the stress of running a business and having to tailor my designs to make the majority happy so I can sell enough to live on

How do I reconcile the thing that I love to do and figure out how it fits into the unknown message I am supposed to be contributing the world and find a way to live off of it?? I am now a single parent and must make an income but I am very close to giving up on having the happy, fulfilled life doing what I love that I've dreamed about and worked towards and just getting a drone job that will pay for the rent and the bills and daycare. I want a reading with Erin so badly but don't have any money to do it. I'm feeling beyond helpless and too stressed to be fully open to whatever my guides are telling me.

12-19-2007, 11:57 PM	#4 (permalink)
rubelin Junior Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 22	My problem is that I am very clear about my medium but can't figure out my message and that seems to be really holding me back from going anywhere. I've been sewing since I was 4 years old, it's something that has always been in my life even though I didn't look to it as a career until college. The thing that has become a problem is figuring how to make a viable living with this talent/passion of mine. I worked in the fashion industry for several years and it definitely was not a great fit for my soul, in fact, I left school because I hated the fashion industry, but got pulled back into it because I love the work, just not the jobs that are available there. I know that I love to sew, love textiles and all that involves, but I hate the marketing, selling and all that stuff that is in that industry. I've has a tiny sewing business for many years, but have no capital to expand and it's very limited creatively, since I can't expand to more designs because I can't afford to have help in making what I already sell. I also have felt horribly guilty for many, many years that what I love to do doesn't contribute much value to humanity. In my life I try to limit consumerism and possesions, yet commerce is intrinsically wrapped up in selling the clothing I make and it seems that our society doesn't value quality and only wants more crap for cheap. I feel bad charging for a quality product but can't afford to donate my life to my business and can't stand the stress of running a business and having to tailor my designs to make the majority happy so I can sell enough to live on How do I reconcile the thing that I love to do and figure out how it fits into the unknown message I am supposed to be contributing the world and find a way to live off of it?? I am now a single parent and must make an income but I am very close to giving up on having the happy, fulfilled life doing what I love that I've dreamed about and worked towards and just getting a drone job that will pay for the rent and the bills and daycare. I want a reading with Erin so badly but don't have any money to do it. I'm feeling beyond helpless and too stressed to be fully open to whatever my guides are telling me.