as Steve said, you have to look in the deep of your heart, many "techers" says that you have first to know your best talents and then found a job like that, but it is a common mistake, because you may have some talents, but it not necessary direct you to what you really want. Other mistake is focusing on money. I'm not saying that this is bad, but people are in bad situations, are stressed or something else (like You) and are going toward their only solution they see. Important thing is to feel good (you said " I am officially falling under the definition of insanity ") if you keep going this way you may have dificulties into acquiring anything. Don't focus on what you can do, focus on what you want do to (sit down, relax, let go any negative thoughs and then ask a question, but do it without any "wanting" (sometimes when people want something they are puting negative energy in it and don't even know it) ask yourself: what is it that i truly want in this moment. Ang go for your inner self, your inner joy, the little voice deep in your soul, when you focus on it, you should start to feel good), do everything without desperative wanting, or focusing too much, first take care of yourself, of how you feel, when you will feel good with yourself then ask yourself, if i could do anything i want (many people ansfer to this question is : writing
) what would it be? and then you have an answer. It really isn't important that you don't have talents in direction of what you want to do, what really matters is to feel good. Then start focusing toward your goal the same way you focus to feel good ( focus on though, on feeling good/joy/happiness, believe (and truly believe without doubt, but don't get frustrated) that you are feeling good, and let go any of negative emotions, you will start to feel good)