Do you focus any of your energies in any personal pursuits? If you're feeling like you're stuck in a rut then you need to expand your horizons. Like Steve said, dig deeper into the abyss but if you don't come up with much then you've got to explore outside and try new things!
I want to draw your attention to your opening line:
"I am an accountant but not exceptionally gifted and talented as all the big wheels."
That told me everything I needed to know and and I guessed the rest of what you had written, before I'd read it, with 99% accuracy!
Yes you have got talents, you've just yet to ellicit them from yourself.
There's a massive world out there with infinite variety, go and check it out!
I wrote a
blog post a while back entitled "
Stuck and not sure what to do with life?" Have a read if you wish, you may find something in there which may help.
You have much more going for you then you give yourself credit for or even understand about yourself. For starters, I admire your courage in admitting openly how you're feeling. Now it's time to take that courage and plough it into something new!
