Thanks to both of you. I have started to write about my thoughts and feelings. And I have found out some really scary but I think, good things about myself. Some beliefs I have held that I can hardly believe afterwards but I got an intense reaction from myself when writing them down. I just think it is so hard to accept some deep things I actually think about myself. Reading them afterwards I still somewhat doubt them but when I read how I reached the conclusion I can see them as true. I guess my mind have been trying to hide tem for so long that its easy to put up the old filters again and try to deny. But I cant deny anything anymore.
Thanks for the input. I am just wondering if it is possible to get through them by myself? I certainly want to, off course it would be nice to have someone to talk to but that is expensive and I cant wait to do something about these things. I will work on it myself, I know I will get over this. But I cant help to wonder if, when having big enough problems people need to see someone?  |