Your story is fascinating Bliss Sage, cool stuff to talk about!
Ofcourse it's not a short trend, but since time is an illusion..... (hahaha, just kidding ofcourse
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I can't relate to the not being heard part. Often I get asked to talk quieter (even though I whisper for my own hearing). This has caused for some emberassing moments in colleges as you probably can understand
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Ofcourse this is all to be traced back to the time where I was bullied and ran over every day. I felt powerless, not understood and lonely. Probably what you experienced the same in some degree.
After I finished my highschool I entered the world of "college". There I started meeting cooler people and I started getting to know myself. Since that moment I'm the one in control, quite dominant as well. Some may find me to "noisy", to "out there". And often this is true, and I like it that way. I'm not here to dominate others, but I do know what I want and what I don't. And who can blame me?
I don't dislike shyness in others, but it becomes annoying when they don't speak up when questions are asked. It's when the border between shyness and autism is getting very thing. When I ask someone a thing, I want an answer, and some folks just have some problems with even some basic interaction.
If we talk about shyness in relationships, I'll pass. Since I'm quite a dominant figure I need someone who can give some resistance. Would I want to be with an introvert? Could be yes, as long as she says what she wants to say it, that's very important.
As I've been on both sides of the spectrum (powerless and powerfull), I now start to notice the "control" position is getting quite annoying and tiring. Even though I like to just speak up my mind, I really focus on letting go of the ropes and just flow within life and every experience on my path.
Have you noticed this within yourself that when you have been on one side of spectrum a while you start to desire the other side?