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Originally Posted by Angelwings  Dear All,
Ever since then I ve been awaken, Im more conscious about my reality.
Somehow,,.I feel LONELY, I feel nothing Suprises / Impresses me anymore because I ve expected the outcomes of many situations/things because I know i m in control of reality now. That's a real problem. I m in Subjective Reality; life is like a GAME.
I Feel more and more lonely coz EVERYONE Is living in OBJECTIVE REALITY. I m single, i want to attract a mate, I realised Relationship is a game too.
It would be hard to find someone that is AWAKEN and FULLY CONSCIOUS like me. Now i m regretting, I wish i m NOT AWAKEN. I wish i didnt take the BLUE PILL like NEO in Matrix. Should have chosen the RED PILL; remain ignorant, unconscious like most majority of population. I wud fit in better in society. |
It sounds a bit like you're playing the 'Im better than you because i'm more enlightened than you' game - which is maybe a false style of enlightenment.
I went through a stage like this also, I believe I'm just coming out of it, but I realised that yes life is like a game, its a fun, seductive game. What good is enlightenment if you're not allowed to have the fun?
I believe the more you find out about yourself, the more able you are to jump back into the messy business of life, get all mixed up in it, but be able to step back every now and then when you need to, and continue the spiritual development, always.
If life is a game, its one that you can never finish
it finishes you.