[Michelle]

Thank you for your reply, Steve. I like very much the idea of focusing on what I want, and letting the Universe handle the details. This makes so much sense. Perhaps I am being too specific in my goal setting?

What I love and find exciting about this opera studio is:

- The work there is done at a very high level. A level which I want to work at. The instruction in language, body work, acting etc. is all exciting to me.

- It is located only one hour from where I live.

- Getting into the studio would basically relieve many of my career worries. I would gain a ton of credibility as a singer/teacher, the agents would come listen to me (instead of me going to them), and it would bring money into my life.

So, how to acheive what I want without the negative side effects?

Okay, I am starting to formulate a plan ...

- Will talk today about lonliness/homesickness with my psychotherapist. Examine that topic and go from there.

- Will talk to my boyfriend about my worry that he won't be supportive of my career. If he is supportive and thinks my worries silly, it will relieve a worry from the list. If not, at least we will be able to talk about the situation and try to find a solution.

- Not sure about being sucked dry and "used". Except maybe I can make a contract with myself that I can stop singing at anytime should I feel sucked dry. Or since the opera studio lasts one year, I make the deal to try it, give it my all, and then decide if I want to continue down that road. By this point I feel resistence, only because one year is a long time (there are people who say "it's only a year", I am not one of them), and if I am unhappy or in the wrong place the time is lost which I could have spent with my boyfriend or in relaxation on a boat on the lake. Something tells me this fear has something to do with the part of me still trapped in Lightworker Syndrome.