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Originally Posted by elsizzle2000  I just don't know any more. I don't know what to do here. I feel like underneath it all she feels it too but doesn't know (I didn't know for a long time). Bun then I feel she treats me poorly. She treats me like I am the old mean, abusive, selfish guy. Am I feeling like crap because of what she is doing or because I am expecting love from her too much? Is she even really my twin soul? do I give up??
I don't know any more. Someone help! |
Hi,
I really understand you. If you skip all the treating her like **** parts, I am living a story like this too, only with a guy. And without some other parts, but I say he is the mirror image of my soul and the reason he is not with me is more complicated and not necessarily his first choice...doesn't matter at this point.
Like you, I have been cultivating love for him, selfless love - or I had been. It feels beautiful, the unconditional love you talk about. But you have to know that when you begin to think about yourself and how you want the other person to treat you, it kills the love and don't you feel this gripping feeling inside? But when you feel the love, it feels freeing and beautiful.
I agree with the previous poster and with the messages you have been getting. You want to know what to do - do what the messages say to do.