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Originally Posted by helgi  What if you said, "I will enjoy solitude being on the road"?
This is a fear you could confront by going on a weekend trip alone, for example, and bring some books on solitude. ( like this litte gem)
But realize that these three particular fears are simply manifestations of a larger and more general fear, that has to do with form-identification and ego. If you investigate your motivations for wanting to play music, replacing wanting "to make a living/to 'make it'" with wanting "to enrich the lives of others with music," could clear away all three fears at once. |
Thanks a lot for your thoughts. Actually, I work in solitude much of the time, which I really enjoy. It is more the being away from home and feeling homesick which gets to me. I do travel to sing already, and I am never as happy being away as I am at home.
In terms of ego, etc. My purpose in life is clear to me, and it has little to do with "making it" or being some kind of weird American idol. Although I would like it if many people derived enjoyment from my singing. Still, there is part of me only willing to fulfill that purpose if she doesn't get the short end of the stick. I have to learn to satisfy my own needs first, before I can satisfy anyone elses. And I have a need now, to still my fears.