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m18pak · 12-09-2007, 01:15 PM

I've slowly converted to the Subjective Reality mindset over the last year or so, and as such I now believe in all things supernatural. I now believe that ghosts, vampires, shape-shifters etc all exist and are out there.

Which is why I'm now scared of the dark; or, to be more specific, opening windows at night.

Lately, I have been getting a sense of imminent danger at night: I feel as though I'm about to get attacked by something evil very soon and my subconscious is trying to warn me.

It's a feeling just beyond my awareness, a thought slithering just beneath my consciousness. I mean, I write this all down now and it just looks stupid, but...the feeling is still there.

I'm afraid to open windows at night now because I keep getting this feeling that something, a claw, maybe, is going to reach out and grab my hand; in fact I'm afraid to even go near windows because I keep expecting to see a face pressed up against the window outside.

I once encountered this girl on the Internet who told me a story about how she once was at a train station and about to get on her train when she suddenly felt like there was a voice screaming at her, saying "stay away! stay away!" And she was freaked out and actually did run away. She was watching the news later that night and it said that the train she had been about to board had crashed that day.

I haven't had anything as strong and clear as that happen to me. Mostly it's just been a sort of nervous unease, the sort you get when you feel like someone is watching you behind your back.

So basically, should I be taking this seriously? I mean, I don't know how to say this without it sounding...ridiculous, but I sometimes get this inexplicable idea in my head, from seemingly out of nowhere, that I did something horribly evil in my last lifetime, like sacrificing-someone-in-a-deal-with-demons evil, and now the malefic forces/energies I summoned back then are now coming back to hunt me down.

I mean, I realise how this must all sound, but I don't know. I feel like I could be a latent psychic. I seem to be able to channel energy to manifest things more easily than normal people, and I have a very strong urge to become a psion; it feels quite natural to me, and ever since I discovered all of this I've sort of just "known" that I would eventually become one down the line (I'm only starting out right now) which is why I think I might have latent psychic potential.

What do you guys think I should do? Am I just going crazy? How do you know if you're psychic and having premonitions? or if you've just been watching too many horror movies and reading too many horror novels and have a overactive imagination?

And what has really been troubling me is: is the fact that I'm giving so much conscious attention to this going to go towards making it come true? Am I drawing this towards me by thinking about it?

Help?

12-09-2007, 01:15 PM	#1 (permalink)
m18pak Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 293	I'm Scared of the Dark I've slowly converted to the Subjective Reality mindset over the last year or so, and as such I now believe in all things supernatural. I now believe that ghosts, vampires, shape-shifters etc all exist and are out there. Which is why I'm now scared of the dark; or, to be more specific, opening windows at night. Lately, I have been getting a sense of imminent danger at night: I feel as though I'm about to get attacked by something evil very soon and my subconscious is trying to warn me. It's a feeling just beyond my awareness, a thought slithering just beneath my consciousness. I mean, I write this all down now and it just looks stupid, but...the feeling is still there. I'm afraid to open windows at night now because I keep getting this feeling that something, a claw, maybe, is going to reach out and grab my hand; in fact I'm afraid to even go near windows because I keep expecting to see a face pressed up against the window outside. I once encountered this girl on the Internet who told me a story about how she once was at a train station and about to get on her train when she suddenly felt like there was a voice screaming at her, saying "stay away! stay away!" And she was freaked out and actually did run away. She was watching the news later that night and it said that the train she had been about to board had crashed that day. I haven't had anything as strong and clear as that happen to me. Mostly it's just been a sort of nervous unease, the sort you get when you feel like someone is watching you behind your back. So basically, should I be taking this seriously? I mean, I don't know how to say this without it sounding...ridiculous, but I sometimes get this inexplicable idea in my head, from seemingly out of nowhere, that I did something horribly evil in my last lifetime, like sacrificing-someone-in-a-deal-with-demons evil, and now the malefic forces/energies I summoned back then are now coming back to hunt me down. I mean, I realise how this must all sound, but I don't know. I feel like I could be a latent psychic. I seem to be able to channel energy to manifest things more easily than normal people, and I have a very strong urge to become a psion; it feels quite natural to me, and ever since I discovered all of this I've sort of just "known" that I would eventually become one down the line (I'm only starting out right now) which is why I think I might have latent psychic potential. What do you guys think I should do? Am I just going crazy? How do you know if you're psychic and having premonitions? or if you've just been watching too many horror movies and reading too many horror novels and have a overactive imagination? And what has really been troubling me is: is the fact that I'm giving so much conscious attention to this going to go towards making it come true? Am I drawing this towards me by thinking about it? Help?