Yeah, I know what you mean... but I think that in 6 months it has really become part of my personality, "the person underneath". I don't know why, nor how.
But I have the impression that I often come across as hostile to other people ever since I got all these problems.
I don't know why or how.
Maybe I myself thought too much about it...
I don't really know
I almost behave like a helpless child in my daily life, who must whine and be pampered and cries for attention.