For the past couple of weeks, I have been questioning my motive in Life. I have things I have to do everyday, goals I set. But ultimately I asked myself, "what is the point?" I still feel this way.
Just a couple of nights ago, I was laying in bed and all my problems came to me, I was extremely frustrated, I wanted to scream because I felt like I have no control, in fact that is what it feels all the time. I questioned my purpose in Life, why am I living, because everything I do is literally pointless to me. Absolutely pointless to me. I asked myself what my purpose, and thoughts were racing through my mind like crazy, and I was ready to pull my senses out. I felt like this many nights to say the truth.
And then something came to me and all thoughts stopped. I asked myself what my purpose is, and my response was:
"To become God"
All thoughts stopped after that. I immediately felt powerful, and extremely calm...... I don't really know what that means....but I know that I will know pretty soon.
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