Yeah I understand
It's just that I feel like trapped in a cage with all this pain; that I'm not even controlling my own body anymore, but my soul is trapped in some broken zombie.
And every person I see I try to scream "HELP! HELP! HELP!", especially because the pain isn't at a constant level of intensity, but it keeps increasing every day, but - as you said - nobody would really care.
I experienced
everything in the past 6+ months through pain.
Pain in the regions that physiologically affect the mood. The nerve pain around the chest which make me act like a cynic, although I have no reason to be one. The neck/nape which forces my head down and makes me servile instead of confident. The shoulders and arms which are forced down and don't allow me to gesture properly anymore...
And sometimes I keep twitching visibly.
Ahh, I'm gonna have to learn it all over again; everything...
Body language? LOL Robotic body language I'd say
