Lol, you call yourself The Beast and greet with "Cheers"? I think you're far from depressed.
If you think you should see a doctor and take medication as a consequence, then do that, but you said you don't smoke, drink, or take drugs, so your body must be in a pretty healthy state, why mess it up any further?
I think you should get inspired by something, anything. Here's one way to do it. Can you think of people who talk very fast and are very passionate about what they do and talk about? (Steve comes to mind, but there are many others.) (They are usually very successful in what they do as a side effect.) Do a little research and find a person like that among the ones you know already, friends, relatives, anybody. Then tell them the truth (doesn't have to be everything, just say you lost motivation in life) and ask them to talk about their passion and about what they love to do. It doesn't matter what it is, because you probably won't be interested in what they do anyway. The main thing is to notice how they approach the subject and why they feel about it the way they feel about it.
If you can't find anyone like that near you, start searching for them on TV, books, internet and get their material. I don't want to advertise it, but Randy Gage made me laugh quite a few times.
Finally, when you hear a few talks like that, you still have to find a thing that interests you the most. What boggles your mind? What are you curious about? How would you like to help people?
There's a lot of fuel in you, you just have to find someone to make a spark.
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