Sometimes medication is the best option. I suffered from severe depression for the majority of my life. I tried everything, and nothing worked. Eventually I went on mood stabilizing medication and I have never felt better. I've had virtually no depression for 2 years. Whenever I start feeling down, the medication kicks in and stabilizes my mood. I'm usually not sad or down for more than a few hours. I wouldn't suggest anti-depressants because they don't necessarily stabilize your mood as well as mood stabilizers. Anyways good luck
And I hope that whatever happens, you end up happy in the end
That's all that matters.