A few months ago I did an exercise where I wrote down every desire that came into my head. Regardless of whether I thought the desire was good or bad, sensible or silly, I wrote it down, without judgment.
I
posted the list on my blog. Some people laughed at some of my desires (I did too), and some thought I was courageous to post them publicly.
I thought I was then going to filter and prioritize my desires. I was going to apply the techniques in the book
Getting Things Done by David Allen. I was going to come up with a plan, identify projects, apply time management, find motivation, list goals, work towards milestones.
Instead, strangely, I find myself empty of desire. I do what I want each day. Little has anything to do with the desires I listed. People call me up and offer me work, and I'll say "yes" or "no" depending on whether it's sensible work for me to do. I enjoy watching the fall sunlight falling upon the brick buildings. I talk to people, and I have a great curiosity. They may insult me, or praise me, or be resistant, or be upset. None of these affect me, I'm just become more curious, I become more fascinated.
Looking at Steve Pavlina's post on the
Levels of Consciousness, I think my predominant state may have reached "Neutrality".
What's interesting is that without the noise and clutter in my mind, I can hear more subtle signals. I can hear the small
voice in my mind that suggests perhaps what I should be doing is helping people through the
singularity, and take it seriously.