I'm not doctor, but i'd say you're bipolar and you should seek treatment.
bipolars reach stages where they're euphoric and full of energy etc, but then drop to stages of depression. they bump up and down emotionally usually in segments a few weeks or a month long- bipolar disorder most commonly comes about around your age too, so it's quite likely.
either way, it's not your fault, so don't get mad at yourself- that's the last thing you should do. it only perpetuates the problem. humans aren't perfect, and most people experience depression sometime in their life.
the good news is, if you don't have major depression, and you aren't bipolar- chances are you'll never have another episode of depression throughout your entire life. if you have major depression it can be hard to tell, episodes sometimes only occur every few YEARS and during that time you'd have to be medicated the whole time since you don't know when it will strike...
if you're interested in meds i suggest you ask your doctor wellbutrin or zoloft- most of the others have negative sexual side-effects unfortunately (not being able to peak; Effexor for example) which doesn't help since the meds usually take weeks to kick in.
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